So it has been like a month since I have written im so sorry!
I have sat down to write this blog about 7 times but everytime I write the whole post and then cant bring myself to post it.
Have you ever felt like ur in this bubble that is getting smaller and smaller? its so hard to breathe and you just want to jump out. Anyways So I don't know about you but my mom is my best friend and its so hard to be in such a unfamiliar place without your best friend by your side. I love you mom. I miss you so much and I think about you every single day. I am counting down the days till i get to see my beautiful family. I miss arguing with my little siblings. I miss watching cheesy christmas chick flicks with my mom. But I mostly miss how it is the time of year when we are supposed to be with family and yet we are what feels like worlds apart. I miss living with my best friend I miss arguing about stupid stuff that is so insignificant. I miss laughing till we are crying while standing in the kitchen making dinner together. I miss all of it. And the hardest part is that I feel like im in someone elses life. Just going through the motions. I feel like I am standing in someone elses shoes. The weird part is im not. It is my life, it is my shoes.
Ya know one of my favorite things is when me and one of my roommates Lauren every wednesday night we chill on the couch and watch our shows together. It is so nice. I know it seems dumb but its such a familiar thing to me and It is something that I love. It is so peaceful and quiet. Everyone needs that one time every week to just escape the rest of the world around them and for me that is my getaway. I wouldn't give that up for anything.
You know life has this way of taking what seems like our routine and messing with it till it all seems unfirmal. Ya know we either have to adapt to change or we get left behind. Change is never gonna stop as long as we are breathing change will be happening. It is scary at times and sometimes it hurts but in the end we will see all the good that came out of it. We just have to keep breathing and take it one step at a time eventually one day we will wake up and realize that our feet are moving the same pace as the world and we didn't even realize we were doing it.
One of my friends is really struggling right now and so I guess I just want her to know that it will get easier in time. Those footsteps will become easier to take and you will adapt to the change. Just keep going and stay strong.
Love you All and hope you are having a wonderful novemeber and are thinking about all wonderful things we have to be thankful for.