Saturday, December 31, 2016

Each Day Counts

As I lay here just 1 day before new years eve I can't help but reminisce. 2016 has been quite the year for me. It has been a year of reflection a year of trials and heartache and a year of celebration and happiness. A few of the milestones that happened this year have been becoming a sophomore in college. Moving between states. Getting a new job and then getting asked to be the one and only full time cook for them. I cannot believe how fast this year flew by. As the years go on I swear they get shorter and shorter as well. However, I have to say that I have ended this year on a fabulous note being able to be home for the holidays and filling each day with priceless memories that will last forever!

Im sure that you all have noticed that every time the new year rolls around everyone seems to be crossing their t's and dotting their I's to make sure everything is in order to gather their goals and ambitions for the new year and they usually last about a month and then it goes back to same old same old with life seeming to go by faster than you do. Now I'm not saying this is how it always is but more often than not this is what we see from all those hundreds of people we pass everyday of our lives. However, 2017 will truly be amazing and their is something so magical and special about the fact that each of these 375 days that we are about to go through will not be the same. Every single day will be unique in its own way and we will never get a day back. Each new day will continue to pass and we will never get it over again to do differently or say what we wanted to say.  I truly believe that 2017 will be a year to remember not because something extravagant or fancy will happen and not because something tragic will happen but because we will make memories in the simple every day things that we do that will be solely placed as a memory that took place in the year 2017.

I heard a quote from my beloved grandma who in a letter wrote " Life starts each time you wake up in the morning." We have 365 days to fix or change the things that we don't like about how we are living or the person we have become. Everyday we can be whoever we want to be and live however we want to live and we are the only ones that can make that decision.

So before I go I just want to say I hope all of you have the best 2017! Make each day count and make this year the year that you become who it is you really want to be!

Sunday, October 16, 2016

Dependet

Hey guys i know it has been a while but wow life is crazy!!!

So I got  a job and I absolutely love it! I am working at a ranch for troubled girls and I seriously love the people I work for they are amazing which makes the job even more amazing!! I also am able to pay for all my bills and everything which is a huge bonus!

Also this week is fall break and so I am having the time of my life this week! Got to go home with one of my roommates and we went forwheeling and took like 8 side by sides up to a canyon and went on an adventure from 5-9 pm. It was so fun and we did get a little lost but it was such a fun adventure and I loved every minute of it! Also my roommates family is so amazing they welcomed me right into their home and were so amazing to spend the weekend with. Today I got on an airplane at 7:30 Am and headed to...... ORLANDO!!! I am so excited!!! I am meeting up with my family and spending the week with them in Florida! I could not be more excited! I bought all of my family a surprise and just can't wait to hug them and laugh and spend a whole week with my best friends (who also happen to be my parents).







So a little background I love airplanes and flying so much!!! I love everything about it! However, because I get so excited on an airplane and I love it so much, I have a very very very hard time falling asleep. This gives me much time to think about things. On today's flight I got to take a trip down memory lane! As I was looking out the window above the clouds I couldn't help but think about all the times my dad and me used to fly! I remember flying so many times in a little 4 seater plane with him and taking a big trip at least once a year and flying on a huge 747. I would constantly look out the window and ask him, "What's that?", "Why is that moving?", "Do you see how high we are and all those clouds?"! haha I probably would ask him about 50 questions every trip. The minute I was born was the moment it all began! The first man I would ever love and the one who I would look up to forever and ever. He will never quite understand how amazing he is and how much I love him!
As a child I was constantely looking up to him and I depended on him for everything, love, knowledge, fun, etc.



Most people as they grow up they grow away from this, however I still depend on my dad so much! Yes I live on my own and pay for my own bills and school and groceries. However, I still turn to my dad when I want advice, when I want someone to tell me everything is going to be ok, and tell me that he will love me no matter where I go in life, who i become, or what I look like. He may tease me or laugh or joke with me which just adds to the fun but I will forever have him in my heart and mind. He will forever have half of my heart.

Wow well now I am going to go try to find something to eat and relax for a minute before my next flight. Here I come the ones I love!!!!

Sunday, September 25, 2016

Sheep Tunnels

Hey guys so here is my weekly update for this week.

Wow a lot has happened it has been a whirlwind of events and emotions.
Please pray on my behalf that I will be able to find a job.

Anyways so I had to give a talk on sunday and I am going to post it below if any of you are interested in reading it. It is definetly not word for word what I said but you will get the main idea of what I talked about by reading it.



In a world filled with so much sadness and heartache it is so important to understand who our Father in Heaven is and how we can communicate with him.

“We create images to find who we are, but who we are is found in the image of God. We need to know who Jesus was and who he is.”



Prayer is such an important and crucial lifeline to us and to so many other individuals in this earth. We have the power to directly talk with our eternal father.



Franklin D. Richards quoted “ With the knowledge that we can converse with God as one man converses with another, we also understand that we not only have a divine spark within us, but that we are actually spirit children of our father in heaven. Prayer, being the primary method of communication between god and man, plays an important part in practically every religion, whether Christian or otherwise.” End quote.



As we make a habit of approaching God in prayer, we will come to know him and draw ever nearer to him. Our Heavenly Father loves us and knows each and every one of us, and our needs as his children. He is waiting for us to communicate with Him. He wants to know all of the Highs and all of the lows.



In the true to the faith it states, “ If you do not feel like praying, pray until you do feel like praying.”



Heavenly Father hears our prayers no matter how small or insignificant they may feel. He will not always answer as we expect or desire. However, he does and always will answer. It will be in his own time and in his own will but he will be there to guide and direct us on our paths if we take the time to let him. In Psalm 46:1 it reads, “ God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.”



I have personally felt the blessings and relief that prayer brings in my own life.  Prayer has been a great blessing and a direct guide for my family and I on numerous occasions.



One occasion stuck out to me while preparing and thinking about this talk.





My parents were set up on a blind date and went out on a Saturday night. My mom was supposed to go to the singles ward the next day where my dad attended but she ended up going to her home ward that day instead. They then went out on a second date the next two days, which were Monday and Tuesday night. The very next day on Wednesday February 14th my dad picked up my mom from work and and they went to Denny’s for Hot chocolate. Afterwards they ended up going to my dad’s house where they sat in the driveway and talked. In the middle of their conversation my dad preceded to ask, “What do you think about the idea of Marriage?”…… My mom then paused and after a minute of thinking she looked at my dad and smiled and said, “ Yes Let’s do It!”



Now you should know my dad had been praying for two years before this that he would find his wife. And after that had happened my mom prayed about it and felt a overwhelming sense of peace and comfort.



Needless to say my parents were married 3 months later.



Although our answers to our prayers may seem sudden or we may not understand right away why the lord would be directing us toward a certain path but he always can see the bigger details that we may not be able to see in that moment. The world may not agree or understand why we do the things we do but if we are asking with a sincere heart and real intent the lord will not lead us a stray. Although it may not be as drastic as being married after just three dates and three months, the lord will always provide and guide for those that seek his hand.



D&C 19:38 reads, “Pray always, and I will pour out my spirit upon you, and great shall be your blessing” The lord sure did bless my parents when he answered those prayers and as a result I have been blessed far more than I could ever put into words.  I cannot imagine what my life would be like without the ever present blessing of prayer.



This life can be closely related to a refiners fire. The lord puts us in the fire until he can see a reflection of himself  in us. Prayer is such an important and crucial part to keeping our lives in line with the saviors.



May we always strive to keep the lord close to us and strive to not lose our father in Heaven. In today’s world it can be very easy to stray and lose sight of where the savior is in our lives. Just like the young boys in the bishop’s office. However, if we keep that connection of communication open and constant than through the spirit we will be able to always keep our lights and our hearts hopeful for all of the amazing things ahead and not on all of the hard times that will come our way.



Jeffrey R. Holland wrote, “God is eagerly waiting for the chance to answer your prayers and fulfill your dreams, just as he always has. But he can’t if you don’t pray, and he can’t if you don’t dream. In short, he can’t if you don’t believe.” End quote.



In ending I just want to remind you of the words of one of my favorite primary songs, “ Pray he is there, Speak he is listening, You are his child, His love now surrounds you.”


Also last weekend me and some roommates went to these things called the sheep tunnels which are these underground tunnels that are covered in graffiti and peoples paintings. It was really fun except for the part where people jumped out at us at the end and scared me so bad I thought my heart stopped beating!










Thursday, September 15, 2016

Prayers Answered

Hey everyone so quick update I have some good news that I wanted to share with you.

So if you have been reading my last post you would know i have been looking for a job and needless to say I have been kind of stressing about it. However, after fasting and much prayer I received a phone call yesterday from a company who offered me a job! I am so thankful for Heavenly Father and for all the prayers that were said on my behalf. It all paid off because on Friday I will be able to start working and it is a good paying job so I won't have to worry about how I am going to have to pay for rent and food and all that stressful stuff. God always answers sincere Prayer and I am so thankful for his hand in my life!

Also I know I already said this but I am so thankful and blessed to have the roommates that I do. They are amazing and I love what each new day brings for all of us. Last weekend three of us went to the football game together. It was soooo long but other than that it was awesome!




We keep talking about how we are going to go snowboarding and stuff together in the winter and we even are planning a trip for spring break together! This year is going to be one for the books! It feels so good everyday to wake up and just love life. I can't stop smiling when I think about all the amazing things that are in my grasp right now and for the life that the savior has blessed me with! I wasn't gonna lie I was pretty nervous to come back to school for many reasons. However, any worries or nerves I had are all gone and all that is left is relief and happiness.

Also just for all of those that were wondering how my room turned out and what it looked like here are pics of it so you an see! I am in love with my house it is perfect! We did have a minor setback when it flooded about a week ago and that was stressful but all of that is taken care of now and everything is back to normal! 



Oh I should also probably tell all of you I was asked to give a talk on Sunday so that should be fun! I am so lucky and I can't even begin to describe all of the amazing things that I have been blessed with in my short lifetime. I could never be able to count them because the love of the savior and his blessings are never ending. I will be forever and ever indebted to him for all that he has done for me and for my family.
Also If you read my last post you would know I have made a goal to read my scriptures every day. I have tried to read a chapter a day I have read out of my scriptures every day but some days I only end up reading about 15 verses instead of the whole chapter. Anyways I would like to always post something I learned about in my reading on my blog each week. I encourage all of you to also start reading your scriptures everyday if not already doing it. Well anyways in my reading this week I was reading about the tree of life.
" And I answered him,saying : Yea, it is the love of God, which sheddeth itself abroad in the hearts of the children of men; wherefore it is the most desirable above all things."
I love this scripture so much! We should all be striving to receive and carry Christ in our hearts. His love is more powerful and everlasting above any other thing. We all strive for the love of those around us so why not strive for the greatest love man could ever receive.  I know that God loves each and every one of us and he is just waiting for us to turn to him to unfold all of his love and blessings upon us.

Have a great day everyone and enjoy the weekend!

Monday, August 29, 2016

Update

Hey Everyone.
It has been way too long since I have last posted. Wow it has been a whirlwind of events lately in my life.

Well for starters I moved back to School and for those of you that don't know I was able to receive a housing scholarship. It has been such an amazing blessing in my life. The lord truly knew what I needed in my life. My roommates have been so amazing. They are so fun and I am so lucky to have them as roommates. Not to mention my house is soooo cute. It's so cozy and cute.

I am currently trying to find a job however, I do have an interview tomorrow so keep your fingers crossed.


I am so excited for this semester.! I have already gone to quite a few events and it has been so fun! I am loving this year so far it has been really good. I am thinking about staying here for summer next year so we will see what happens. I know that this year is definetly the year for me! I just have this undeniable feeling that so many amazing things are going to happen for me this school year!
However, because of that I am making a promise right now that i will keep all of you posted on the weekly. It may not be long but I will at least keep you posted on whats been going on in my life.

I also just want to thank my beautiful family for all of the many sacrifices that they have made on my behalf that has been able to get me to where I am today. I couldn't have done it without their support and love. I seriously lucked out when it comes to my family. I have the best siblings a girl could ask for and the most amazing parents in the world. I am so lucky!

I  also seem to have a pretty good ward so far. It definitely isn't big at all but everyone seems to be super nice and way cute of people. Since we are on the topic of church. I had a really awesome experience the other day.
So I will definetly be the first to admit I am so terrible about reading my scriptures every day I love them but I just struggle to read out of them on the daily. However, at a devotional my stake president gave here recently he told us that if we could just find the time to read one chapter a day we would be better students, better spouses, better people, just overall better in any aspect of our lives that we needed help in. I knew without a doubt that I wanted to make a promise to my Heavenly Father and start reading in my scriptures every single day. So as I was waiting for class to start today I was playing on my phone and then a thought came into my mind.... "If I have the time right now to do something as dumb as play on my phone why can't I just take this time to read my scriptures instead."
So right then I opened my lds scriptures app and started reading. As soon as I got to about verse 5 in the chapter I recieved a text message stating that my dad had received a interview for a job I had applied for! Wow! isn't the lord so amazing!!! I know that this was no coincidence, if we take even just a fraction of our time every day and devote it to the lord he will provide ways for us to accomplish everything on that super long list of to-do's that are sitting beside you, he will provide the courage needed to introduce yourself to the new kids, he will provide a way for you to be a better mother,father,wife, husband, and child that you desire to be. I know that the lord is constantly watching over us and waiting to pour out those blessings and so many more if we just open that window once a day.

I  love all of you and I am so excited that we live in such an amazing time. We have so many amazing blessings right at our fingertips. I hope you have a wonderful rest of your day and know that there are so many people thinking about you and what a great light you are to them.

Saturday, June 25, 2016

Crossroads





"There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads. Afraid, confused, without a road map. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our lives. Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back. But once in a while, people push on to something better, something found just beyond the pain of getting it alone. And just beyond the bravery and courage to let someone in or to give someone a second chance. Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream. Because it's only when you're tested that you truly discover who you are. And it's only when you're tested that you discover who you can be. The person you want to be does not exist somewhere on the other side of hard work, faith, believe. And beyond the heartache and fear of what lies ahead." Unknown


I can't remember a single time in my life that I didn't have people telling me what to do or giving me their advice even without me asking for it. I have always had someone in the background trying to influence my life. Don't get me wrong. I am very grateful that I have so many people in my life who love me enough to care what I do and how I do it.  However, there comes a point in our lives when we have to decide for ourselves who we are going to be and how we are going to do things. My life has been filled with many crossroads where I had to make a decision right there who I was going to be and how I was going to face the situation at hand. All the hard things that you will go through in this life are a way for you to show yourself what your made of. To prove to yourself that hard work, dedication, and courage pay off. No matter what all those voices may be saying, You are good enough, You are beautiful, You are strong, You know what matters most to you and you can be whoever you want to be in this life. Let the moments define you and discover who you truly are.
I'm just going to keep this post short but I want you all to know that you are worth every bet that the lord has placed on you. He knows you are worth it and I know your worth it. So Go.... Dream... now chase after it whatever it may be and find what makes you happy!

Monday, May 16, 2016

The Little Things Matter

Hey, everyone! Wow, it has been forever since I wrote last. So much has happened I don't even know where to start.

So I moved home for the summer. I already have my old job back I think they gave me like two days to get settled in before I was working a shift there. haha, I cant complain its been pretty great. It feels so good to be home. It's such a weight and stress lifted off my shoulders. It's so beautiful here and I love the way of living in the south! It just really feels like home.

So we found out we have to move out of our current house sooner than we thought so if any of you have boxes let me know! :) I'm just packing and working and just staying busy. Same old same old.

Last Sunday was Mothers day and i just wanted to take a moment to thank all of those beautiful strong brave selfless mothers out there. We wouldn't get too far in life without them and I know I definitely wouldn't be the person I am without my mom.

Sorry, this post is kind of all over the place, life has just been hectic lately.
I just want to take a minute to talk about something that happened yesterday. I was sitting in Sunday school with my head on my best friends moms shoulder and I could hear all the little kids singing songs in the next room over. Their little voices were so sweet and tender and there is so much peace in the small moments we take for granted in life. There are so many things that we have to be grateful for in our life. so many moments that we have every single day and never realize how truly amazing they are. For instance, dirty dishes after a meal mean that there was food to eat. Fighting kids in your home means you were blessed with the greatest gift of god, to be a mother. An empty tank of gas means you were blessed with a car to get yourself from point A to point B. There are so many opportunities throughout your day to count your blessings. No matter what we go through there will always be a reason to smile. It might just take a minute to find it.



I hope that throughout the rest of your day you find all the little things to smile about and realize all the greatness you have in your life. Love you all!

Sunday, March 27, 2016

We will Rise because He is Risen



Hi, everyone!

 Happy Easter! With it being Easter weekend I just wanted to take a minute and write about all that Easter entails for me.

What is Easter? Easter is so many things it's a time when we can reflect on the crucifixion of Christ and how even after those dark and despairing times he rose on that beautiful Sunday morning, it's the sun after the rain, it's the hope that comes shining through on the darkest moments, all because one man was willing to give his life for each and every one of us. The darkness and sadness of the death of christ did not endure. Sunday came and so did the sun and hope of his Ressurection. We will all have our broken and dark times but that bright triumphant day when we will rise will come. This year of school for me was definitely one of the hardest years in a long time. There was a lot of ups but there was also a lot of downs and a lot of tears shed. However, one song has through all of it kept me faithfully waiting for the sun to shine and for it to be my time to triumph. Below is the song so that you can listen to it and I strongly encourage you to.

"When I'm alone I can fall to my knees and I know he will always be there, He is always up there looking down, and he knows me and he loves me just how I am" There has been so much heartache for me this year but I can honestly say I have never felt alone because I have had my father in Heaven holding my hand every step of the way. He is always up there watching over me. I know that there were times I was stubborn and reluctant to grab hold of his hand because I wanted to try to be strong by myself but he just kept walking alongside of me until I was ready to let him carry me. Christ suffered in more ways than I could ever imagine and he had to go through more pain and had to endure the unthinkable and he did all of that just for me! Christ is Risen so that through all of my faults and heartache he can be right next to me leading me along. He has felt every emotion and every hardship I will ever go through in this lifetime. He gave his whole life so that one day I can return to him. To him I owe each breath that I breathe. Dallin H. Oaks stated," Our Savior's Atonement does more than assure us of immortality by a universal resurrection and gave us the opportunity to be cleansed from sin, His atonement also provides the opportunity to call upon him who has experienced all of our mortal infirmities to give us the strength to bear the burdens of mortality." Through all of the hard times Christ gave me the strength to continue on and it is only through faith and obedience that he will be able to lead us to our happily ever after.

 I read a quote and it really stuck out to me, "When a train goes through a tunnel, and it gets dark, you dont throw away the ticket and jump off. You sit still and trust the engineer." When our life goes through a dark spot or a hardship we shouldn't just say well, might as well do whatever I want cause it doesn't matter there is no hope, we should wait and continue faithfully in obedience and trust because after the dark spot is over is when Heavenly Father shows us all the blessings he was waiting to give us.We just had to stay on the ride long enough to receive them.

Through all of the darkness and tears that I have felt, he has continued to raise me up and he has continued to bless me over and over even when I feel I don't deserve it. I have been able to grow and learn. I have been able to go through things that I never imagined I would have to go through this year and somehow through it all I have been able to see my strengths and weaknesses and I have seen all of the ways the lord touches my life and gives me the strength that I need to continue on this journey to be able to reach the blessings and his embrace at the end of the road.
 
 I have learned more about myself and the things that I truly want out of life and the person that I want to become because of the things that I have had to endure. I have been able to rise even when I thought it would be impossible and all because the lord is risen, and walks along side of me. I have learned how much the friends I have in my life mean to me and how much I am thankful that they are there for me whenever I need them. I Love my Heavenly Father and I love my Savior and Redeemer Jesus Christ. I am not perfect in any way and I know that there are a lot of people out there that don't like the way I do things or live my life but Christ has never stopped encouraging me and he has always been willing to lead me along if I let him. He has never stopped cheering me on and I cannot ever put into words how much I truly love him and how much I grateful for him in my life! I cannot wait for the day that I can wrap my arms around him and just be in his presence. We all can rise over all of our hardships and foes because He Is Risen.Friday will end and Sunday will come. That sun will come, so continue on and grab hold of him because he is right there next to you.

Dear Child,
     I remember well the day you left my side. I had a tear in my eye each time I clothed your spirit in a cloak of love and sent you off to school. Be assured that my thoughts are with you now, as always. I love you with all my heart. I know your life, the good and the bad, your grief, your disappointments, your unrewarded efforts, your frustrations and temptations, but always remember... all that I have is yours if you will only come home again.
     Realize that in you I placed a bit of heaven, no one was exempt, I love all of my children. You have some blessed gift, some talent, some small part of me in you. Search for it. Develop it. Use it and most importantly share it with others. If you really love me, then help others find themselves and lead them to me. Show your love by serving others.
     Repent of your failings and humble yourself. Make yourself ever teachable and continually strive to improve. I gave you weaknesses to help you to be humble; don't condemn me for that. I did it because I love you. Be full of hope; don't let discouragement engulf you. I'll come if you need me.
     Be a peacemaker for it breaks my heart to see so many of my children fighting. If they only could see what I have hoped, planned and desired for them. My heart breaks as I watch them, but you, my faithful child, are my hope. It is through you that my work must proceed. You haven't much time there is so much to be done. I beg you to get started. Accomplish the mission I gave you before you left me. I'll help you. I'm never to busy or too far away to come to you. I'm nearer to you always than you might suspect. I have so much I'd like to tell you but I can't here.
     Come to me often in prayer. I love to talk to you, my beloved child. Be diligent in my work and my kingdom shall be yours. I'd love to take you in my arms, but I too must wait patiently, that day will come. Till then, I leave you with my peace, my blessing my love, and never forget I am nearby if you need me. 
     I love you and miss you so very much, and oh, how I am looking forward to your return again to me and your mother. 
                                                                       All my love,
                                                                            your Heavenly Father


May that always be our goal to return to our Father in Heaven and Jesus Christ. I know that they are always watching over us. They love each and every one of us and no one is exempt. They too just like us are waiting for the day we can be reunited and feel each others embrace.

Love you all and Happy Easter Everyone!

Monday, March 21, 2016

Centered

Hi, everyone! Wow, it has been what feels like months since I have last posted. I am so sorry about that although I have been staying very busy that's for sure.

So just a few quick things to catch you guys up on some of the stuff that has happened lately in my life. So I had spring break and that was way fun cause I got to spend it with an old friend and her family who I totally adore! I loved having family dinner all together every night and playing games as a family. I loved every minute of it and I felt so loved and they were so amazing to open up their home and deal with me for a whole week! I also got to talk to my friends mom one day while it was just us two at the house and it was amazing. I had an incredible conversation with her and I had really been struggling with some stuff and she just hugged me and loved me and told me some similar situations she has been in and it was so awesome. I have to say, I have had a lot of friends in my life, but not very many really close friends. However, I have had so many adults in my life that have always been there for me and loved me and treated me like another one of their children and it has made a lasting impact in my life. They will never truly know how grateful I am for all of those people in my life because I cannot put it into words. To all of you adults, I say Thank You!
Ok so moving on, another really exciting thing that just happened to me and I cannot stop smiling from ear to ear every time I think about it is that I applied for an apartment next year and I got accepted!!!!! I love the apartments and they are not super fancy they aren't really anything special to most people but to me it is one of the most amazing things ever!!! I get to have these apartments for the rest of my college years hopefully and it is something that I can say is mine and something that I can say I worked hard for! With that being said, if anyone has any furniture that they need a loving home for in august let me know cause I currently have like nothing furniture wise ;) haha. Also don't want to miss one of the most important things ever! Only 39 days left of school for me!!! After that, I will be considered a sophomore in college, so exciting!

Ok so now on a more serious note... I was at work the other night when a homeless man came into my work and I was the only one up at the front and so he proceeded to tell me that he was heading south and hadn't eaten in days and that he was wondering if I had any food I could give him. What I am about to say I feel very ashamed and embarrassed about, a look of confusion came across my face as I desperately wanted to give him something to eat but knew I would lose my job if I just gave him a free meal. After a moment of me just trying to figure out what to do I gave him a free mini quesadilla because we have that on our menu and it is free and so I gave him one. He said thank you and then left quickly. As I watched him walk away from the store a feeling of guilt quickly washed over me as I realized I could have let him pick anything on the menu and then I could have just bought it for him. I went home that night and I couldn't seem to shake it out of my mind. In a moment where I had the opportunity to do something for someone I faltered and I hesitated and I panicked. Heavenly Father needs me to be his hands here on this earth and I need to be quick and selfless and I need to be a lifeboat in case of emergency. I was none of these things and it really made me think ok I need to desperately prepare myself and constantly be striving to strengthen my hand in the gospel so that in the future I can be there when Christ needs me to help lend a hand to one of his children. A great example to show what I am trying to say is how I have been decluttering and spring cleaning trying to get rid of all the stuff in my life that I don't really need. This can very much be related to the gospel in the fact that we need to try to get rid of all the distractions and all of the things in our lives that is pulling us away from Christ. We need to have one eye single to the glory of god. We need to constantly be checking to see if we really are trying to strengthen our testimonies and our foundation in the gospel of Jesus Christ. I guess what I am trying to say is that we should all try to declutter or "spring clean" our lives and make sure that we are constantly trying to center ourselves around becoming more christlike. 

I encourage all of you to think about the "clutter" in your lives that you can get rid of and in the end I know that you will find the happiness and peace that comes from constantly serving the lord and trying to always be available to help his other children.

I know that God loves all of us and he wants what is best for us. We may not see it right now but the end result that god has planned for all of us is so much worth the journey. I love you all and hope you have a Wonderful rest of your week. I will be posting another blog either Sunday or Monday so keep a lookout! oh and once again Thank you so much for reading my blog!

Friday, February 5, 2016

Missing You

Today is February 5, 2016. Exactly 17 years ago a beautiful little angel named Connor came into this world. I do not remember or know much about him except for this one very precious and sacred truth. He was an angel sent down to earth to prepare our hearts for the years to come. He was so perfect and was so amazing that Heavenly Father only blessed us with him for a short two months. My brother Connor and I share the same age for the next 20 days. Happy Birthday my dearest Brother. I cannot wait till the day that I get to wrap my arms around you and talk about all of our amazing experiences we have had while we have been apart. I love you so much and know that you are doing an amazing job on your heavenly mission. 
I cannot even begin to describe to you how much of a blessing this is to me in my life. How amazing is it to be able to tell the world that you have a loving angel watching over you every single day and that you get to share your age with that precious being for a short time. I love my brothers more than words could ever describe and I am so thankful to be chosen to be a part of their lives because what a blessing it has been to me. 

Now I also have to take a minute and brag about a very special woman,  because I have the best mom in the whole world. I know that every birthday that passes for one of her sons gets a little harder and harder because that means the years they have been separating is growing bigger and bigger. I cannot tell you that I know what that is like and I cannot tell you that I know what that feels like. I am not a mother and I cannot even begin to imagine the feeling that her sons came and took a very large spot on her heart and then left her soon after and took that part of her heart with them. However, I can tell you this. There is no woman more strong and beautiful and amazing that was more right for this calling in life. I have never seen someone endure such heartache and pain with so much dignity and beauty as my mother has. I love her more than words can describe and as I write this I am filled with the strongest emotions and tears are brought to my eyes because I wish that she could see and feel the love that I have for her. I know that she has touched so many people's lives that she will never even imagine and that every day and every person she comes in contact with can see her beauty and strength. My mother is truly an angel sent down and hand sculpted straight from my loving heavenly father. I cannot believe that he found me worthy to have such a beautiful spirit to raise me. I wish that she could see what everyone else sees in her because, Mom You are the most perfect, selfless, loving, and kind-hearted person I have ever met. I love you so much and I pray for the day that I will be able to be reunited with you. I know that you were hand chosen to raise these beautiful angels and I know that all 6 of your children love you more than words can describe. I know that your sons love you more than you know and they brag about you all the time while on their heavenly missions and I know that they would do anything to protect you and keep you safe. I know that is why they found the most perfect and loving person they could to watch over you and protect you here on earth because they have to do that job spiritually and they arent here to do it physically themselves. That is why they sent you Carter Jon Eby because they knew they could not find anyone else more perfect for the job. It may take time but he will be there to stand by your side and defend you.  Your children will always carry you in their hearts and you will be one of the most important women they will ever meet. 

I Love you Mom Keep your head up and Keep a smile on your face because People are waiting to come into your life and you have no idea the impact you will have on this world. 

Wednesday, January 20, 2016

Eternal Perspective

Hi everyone,
Wow, it has been what feels like years since I have posted I am so sorry! It has been over a month since I have been able to write to you guys. Well, a lot has happened. I got to see my family for a week at Christmas. I started a new semester in school which means new professors and new courses, unfortunately the new ones I have are very difficult and keep me very busy. Due to how much homework I have every night and how much reading I have to do for my classes I pretty much live at the library. I feel like I am there 24/7. I still have not found a new job although I still keep applying for new ones. Kind of frustrating but oh well. I found out some very exciting news so that put a smile on my face. I have been staying super busy and I have gone on a few dates already since I have been back from Christmas break so that was fun :) I went on an adventure by myself the other day, unfortunately I didn't find anything super cool but It was fun and I tried cooking some foods that I haven't ever tried before like spaghetti squash and artichoke.... the Squash was super yummy definitely be cooking that again but I can safely say I'm not a huge fan of artichoke too much effort to eat it and it just wasn't my favorite but it was fun to try new things. I have had the travel bug really bad lately. I want to go travel to new places and talk to new people that I don't really understand and try their food and just be a part of their unique culture that I am not a part of in my everyday life but oh well that will have to wait for another day. hehe. :)

 I could continue on for hours about all the craziness in my life right now but there is something else that I really want to talk to you guys about.

So I'm sure that if you guys read my post from last semester you could probably gather that it was a really hard semester for me. I really struggled and I was constantly feeling heartache and frustration and I just was not where I wanted to be in my life. I'm sure you all have had a time in your life where you just felt as if the heartache and sadness wasn't going to end but when I returned back to school a few weeks ago I realized why I was so unhappy. I was so focused on my life in the moment and I was so focused on what I was going through in that exact moment and when I found myself thinking about "Today" I felt the despair and heartache because it was not a place where I wanted to be and everything around me seemed to be going against me or telling me I wasn't good enough or that I was too focused on certain things. It is so important that we always keep the eternal perspective in our minds because that is what matters. This semester I have been keeping myself very busy on purpose so that I have something to do to keep me occupied and because then I don't find myself thinking about the here and now and it is so much easier to keep the end goal in mind. Everything I go through right now is because the lord is preparing me. What he is preparing me for is not something i know right now but I do know that somehow someway I will be able to use these experiences I go through right now to help others in the future and I will be able to keep strong faith because no matter how small the matter really is it can feel so big to us as mortals because we often forget that this time on earth is so short and is just a small pinpoint on the eternal timeline. When we remember that we will be able to see all the way's that the lord helps us get through our trials and our here and now moments.


Lastly on my little rant I just really want to tell you all how much I love my savior Jesus Christ. I know that he lives. I know that he sends people and angels to help me each and every day. I know that he has sent me on this earth with a mission and that through him and through the atonement I will be able to come unto him and all his fullness and be able to complete my mission that was so carefully picked just for me. I know that he Loves me and each and every one of you. He knows our hearts he knows us way better than we know ourselves. Most importantly he see's us for what we were destined to become, Kings and Queens in his kingdom. I know that "he lives to silence all our fears" and help us in our times of need. This earth and our journey can be a beautiful thing if we let him lead us with his hand.


I love you all and hope you have a wonderful day! Thank you for reading my blog it means the world to me.