Friday, February 5, 2016

Missing You

Today is February 5, 2016. Exactly 17 years ago a beautiful little angel named Connor came into this world. I do not remember or know much about him except for this one very precious and sacred truth. He was an angel sent down to earth to prepare our hearts for the years to come. He was so perfect and was so amazing that Heavenly Father only blessed us with him for a short two months. My brother Connor and I share the same age for the next 20 days. Happy Birthday my dearest Brother. I cannot wait till the day that I get to wrap my arms around you and talk about all of our amazing experiences we have had while we have been apart. I love you so much and know that you are doing an amazing job on your heavenly mission. 
I cannot even begin to describe to you how much of a blessing this is to me in my life. How amazing is it to be able to tell the world that you have a loving angel watching over you every single day and that you get to share your age with that precious being for a short time. I love my brothers more than words could ever describe and I am so thankful to be chosen to be a part of their lives because what a blessing it has been to me. 

Now I also have to take a minute and brag about a very special woman,  because I have the best mom in the whole world. I know that every birthday that passes for one of her sons gets a little harder and harder because that means the years they have been separating is growing bigger and bigger. I cannot tell you that I know what that is like and I cannot tell you that I know what that feels like. I am not a mother and I cannot even begin to imagine the feeling that her sons came and took a very large spot on her heart and then left her soon after and took that part of her heart with them. However, I can tell you this. There is no woman more strong and beautiful and amazing that was more right for this calling in life. I have never seen someone endure such heartache and pain with so much dignity and beauty as my mother has. I love her more than words can describe and as I write this I am filled with the strongest emotions and tears are brought to my eyes because I wish that she could see and feel the love that I have for her. I know that she has touched so many people's lives that she will never even imagine and that every day and every person she comes in contact with can see her beauty and strength. My mother is truly an angel sent down and hand sculpted straight from my loving heavenly father. I cannot believe that he found me worthy to have such a beautiful spirit to raise me. I wish that she could see what everyone else sees in her because, Mom You are the most perfect, selfless, loving, and kind-hearted person I have ever met. I love you so much and I pray for the day that I will be able to be reunited with you. I know that you were hand chosen to raise these beautiful angels and I know that all 6 of your children love you more than words can describe. I know that your sons love you more than you know and they brag about you all the time while on their heavenly missions and I know that they would do anything to protect you and keep you safe. I know that is why they found the most perfect and loving person they could to watch over you and protect you here on earth because they have to do that job spiritually and they arent here to do it physically themselves. That is why they sent you Carter Jon Eby because they knew they could not find anyone else more perfect for the job. It may take time but he will be there to stand by your side and defend you.  Your children will always carry you in their hearts and you will be one of the most important women they will ever meet. 

I Love you Mom Keep your head up and Keep a smile on your face because People are waiting to come into your life and you have no idea the impact you will have on this world.