So this post is something that is more for myself than anyone else to be honest.....
So if you have known me for a long time than you will most likely agree with everything I am about to tell you. I have always struggled with self image and with confidence in myself. I consider myself confident but at the same time I have always told myself why me?... people can do so much better! it is has not been easy to realize and my parents helped me to realize that. I just have always looked at myself as not good enough in a lot of ways! I am very proud of how far I have gone in life in such a short time frame but I am not always happy with the kind of person I am. I get so down on myself because I feel like I always need to be perfect and strong for everyone around me 100% of the time and so when I make a mistake it is not easy for me because I am so hard on myself about it for a very long time afterwards.
However, with all of that said I can tell you one thing that I am most confident in and that I can say with 100% surety that is true! I know without a doubt that I am a child of God. I know that I have a father in Heaven who loves me and is always listening to me. He knows me and loves me. He is always counting on me to be my best self so that I can bring other people unto him. I am so thankful for his constant hand and guidance in my life. I love this gospel more than life itself and it is the foundation that holds everything together. My life is often hectic and crazy but he is there to watch over me and listen. He does not expect me to be perfect but expects me to try my hardest to show my love for him and his gospel every single day. I am so thankful for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I can honestly say I would not be the person I am without it, and I would be very lost if I did not have its love around me. I want other people to know that outside the church the world seems black and white but within the church it gives life color. It gives us a purpose and a loving arm to lead us. I know that as I strive to strengthen my testimony and strengthen my relationship with the savior I will strengthen my relationship with those around me and life will not seem so confusing and hard at times.
I also just want to say Thank You! Thank you to all of you who have always been there for me and have on so many occasions dropped everything you were doing to come to my side. I have no idea why I was chosen to be so blessed with so many amazing and loving people in my life but I would not give it up for anything! I have so many adults in my life who I can honestly say are like another set of parents to me. I have felt on so many occasions the overwhelming sense of love from you guys. As I am writing this I am brought to tears because I know that All of You are angels that were sent to me. I could not go through this life without the amazing support that I have from so many people. The sacrifice that has been given on behalf of myself and my family throughout my life has been such a wonderful example to me of the kind of service and love I want to give back throughout my life. I love you all so much and could never fully put into words the amount of appreciation I have for you.
May you enjoy the rest of your Beautiful sabbath day and I hope you are spending it with all those that you love and make you happy. That is what truly matters. Have a wonderful week!