Sunday, January 27, 2019

The one I waited for...

A lot of people have been wanting an update on my life and all the craziness that has happened. I thought what better way to explain it to everyone than through my blog. Life has been a total whirlwind these past 6 months! I have loved being a teacher to my sweet first graders. However, I have never felt more unprepared and have never felt like a failure as much as I have this year! I pour my heart and soul into my classroom and trying to make sure that each child succeeds. So when I have a kiddo who is struggling I feel like I did not do enough as their teacher. With that being said I never stop looking at ideas and ways that I can help them even more and I am excited to see where the end of the year takes us! I have survived 6 months as a first year teacher and seeing how far we have come makes me so excited to see where the next 4 months takes my class and me. I still am trying to rearrange my classroom and constantly changing things. One day I will get it how I want it. haha

With all that being said.. The reason I really wanted to write this blog post was because I have to take a minute and brag. Ever since I was young I remember thinking how excited I was to be a wife and a mother one day to my own family. I was always so anxious to grow up so that I could get married. All through college I remember having so many talks with my mom on the phone because so many people around me were finding their companion and I felt like I was getting farther and farther away from finding the one person I could share my life with forever. Everyone kept telling me that it happens when you least expect it and I remember getting so frustrated because I felt like I wanted it so bad that there was no way I never would expect it.

I would always dream about the type of man I wanted to share forever with and after going on dates I never would want a second date because I realized that I couldn't see a future with that person. However, I can whole heartedly say that all those people were right. It really does happen when you least expect it.

I met my somebody a month after I had graduated from college.I had taken a 3 week trip to Tennessee to spend some time with my family after graduation and had just returned home. I had moved up to northern Utah and was living with my amazing aunt and uncle at the time. I got a text message from a boy that I had gym class with in 7th grade. He asked me if I was currently dating anyone because he had seen that I had moved up north. We continued talking and went on our first date two days later. Our first date was not the best but that was because I was not the best date to be with that day. haha I had just quite my job that day and was just not having a great day. We went and got dinner and then went to a drive inn movie. Even though I was the worst on that date he still stuck around. We continued to talk and go on dates. I have to admit I definitely did not think that I would end up marrying Austin but I was just having fun getting to know him more and going on dates with him. He happened to enter my life when I least expected it.

First date June 19th. We officially started dating on August 28th. We were engaged on December 5th and will be getting married on June 1st!

I can whole heartedly say that Austin is the one I waited my whole life for. I could not be more happy than I am with him! He is absolutely the most kind hearted selfless hardworking person I have ever met. He would move mountains for me and he is going to make the most amazing husband and father to our future kids one day. He makes me happier than I ever knew possible and I thank Heavenly Father everyday for placing him in my life! It felt like a lifetime of waiting but I am so glad I did because there is no one better to spend life with! He makes me laugh and he knows how to put a smile on my face even on the worst of days! He continues to do the small things for me like continue to open my doors. He loves me in a way that I thought no one ever would! He continues to surprise me and each day I find myself falling more and more in love with him! He is so patient with me even when I don't deserve it. I could not ask for anyone better! I got to choose out my wedding dress last weekend and although it was not the experience I always dreamed about and I don't want to ever have to do that again. I had the most amazing moment while I was standing in the dress that I chose. I was standing on the pedestal with my dress on and a bouquet in hand and veil on me. The associate had me close my eyes and started describing my wedding day to me and told this vivid scene in my head for about 4 minutes. She then asked me what dress I could see myself in during that whole experience. I had tears start to fill my eyes and I had this overwhelming sensation throughout my whole body. In that moment the dress was the last thing on my mind. I did not care what dress I chose because all I wanted was to be married to my best friend walking hand in hand. I knew in that moment that there was no better choice in the world for me than the choice I had made to marry Austin. I cannot wait for these next 5 months to fly by!

I choose you Austin Thompson to life with hand in hand side by side. I choose you to love with my whole being unconditionally. I choose you at the beginning and end of every day!
He will forever be my always and I could not be more excited for the life we are making together!